update on me: 1

it seems like i don't eat regularly these days. i can say i eat 1 meal a day, it is lunch.
i love lunch but do not get me wrong. i love dinner more.
it is 7:11 p.m. and i am hungry. i want to go eat but i often feel odd to go out by myself for food.
i do not do that normally. i always ask friends out to cafeteria or food outside. to be honest, i am really lazy to go out. i miss home cooked meals. i have been watching "what we eat..." on youtube and i am utterly obsessed watching people cooking especially if it is vegan, it looks more attractive.
made me cannot wait to go home and cook. i miss cooking. i also really miss doing groceries. i want to buy the freshest vegetables and i want to eat!

i just think that if i go out right now, i would order fried rice like usual. it feels heavy on my stomach but it is decent enough to make me feel full. but really, i miss real, special meals.

i really cannot wait for my next dentist appointment, i really need my teeth to look rad!
so i would not feel any discourage anymore when i feel like laughing or smiling, or even saying hi to my crush. i really feel weird when he is around and i would just smile hiding my teeth, do i not look any weirder than that? ugh.

or even say yes to him for some cuddling sessions. i could crack more dumb slow jokes.

come on, a week ahead. then there would not be any hesitations, i hope.